10 mths 27 days.

this time round i cant do anything to save my relationship anymore. no matter what i do,he's leaving me. he cant be blame. is my wrong this round. i always thought i would live happily after wit this guy i spend almost 11 months wit. he's someone i loved the most in my life. the one whom pull me up from my previous failed relationship. the one whom showered me wit loved and care. but i made the biggest mistake in my life that hurt him. although he forgive me 2 months ago but i know he will leave me sooner or later. i tried to run away from the problem when i know the scar i had done in his heart cant be mend. but this is finally happening. i have to face the consequence. i never thought that the moment that he tell me he wanted to break wit me would be that hurtful. its just like my heart is tearing apart. my mind went blank. tears start rolling down like river. everything i see become black & white. its hurt so badly everytime i breath. memories of us together flash back. hands went numb and cold. i can feel the pain i had cause him. i start hating myself,hating myself why must i do such thing to this man whom i love him so deeply and this man that once love me so deeply too. im sorry for everything. but saying sorry cant bring him back to me anymore. everything is too late. i tell him before that he's my everything and i mean it. he's my thoughful hubby,my sweet boyfriend,my caring friend. i did think of ending my life but when i saw his photo in my phone. i changed my mind. i wanna see this man forever. i still want him to hold my hand till the end. i still want my baby to call him daddy and call me mummy. i still want to see him every morning the first thing i wake up. and give him a goodnight kiss everynight. there still alot of things i have not done wit this man that i loved so badly. i will prove it to him! althought it might be tough but at least i tried. i just need a little luck from god (:

this 2 rings,i believe they will find each other one day.

signing off

wendylikeCRAZY_