i felt that i had a split personality. sometime i felt that im so tired of trying i wanna let him go. but after awhile i started to miss him,started to cry about our break up. does this happen to all girls or just me? i've done everything i could. but all i could do is wait. i talked to my reflection,my shadow,my toy,friends. but doesn't help at all. i start to afraid of noise,food and even sleep. today is the 11th days since we break off. i've never in my life felt so painful in my past break up. i used to be a happy girl that all friend could laugh all day wit me. but now i dont even even know myself. im like a living corpse. i could feel the pain in my heart aching so badly. im just like a puppet,when he say a single sweet thing i can be very happy but the moment he say something hurtful i cried. i hate myself so much. but i just cant let go,no matter how bad he treated me and how much hurtful things he said. i still wanna wait,wait for that day he turned his head around and look at me. thats how pathetic i am now.

2AM - like a fool

like a fool,why dint i know.

like a fool,why did i let you go.

like a fool,my heart cries slowly.

i know now.

my love is only you.

even if my eyes look for you.

even if my heart pressure me.

i didn't believe that it was love.

i believe that i was lonely and need to lean on you.

like a fool,why didn't i know.

like a fool,why did i let you go.

like a fool,my heart cries slowly.

i know now.

my love is only you.

let stop acting like a fool.

let's not heart ache alone.

when tears fell because if pain.

i become upset with my heart for being weak.

like a fool,why didn't i know.

like a fool,why did i let you go.

like a fool,my heart cries slowly.

i know now.

do you know,that you are my love.

do you know,that you fill my heart.

like a fool.

i've just found out that.

you,i call you.

because without you,i cant move on.

signing off

wendylikecrazy